[閒聊] 可以討個拍拍嗎?
減肥至今也有一年半了,體重從今年二月就沒有變化,
原本一直想等達到標準體重再上來發文跟大家分享心情,
也一直靠著這個動力辛苦維持著。
過了25歲的分水嶺,新陳代謝變得好慢,
加上以前年少時用不適當的減肥方法,讓我減得更慢。
我不是一個堅強跟有毅力的人,我有的只是被刺激過後拼湊起那微小的自尊。
因為不想再被傷害所以武裝自己。
是的沒錯,我迄今已經減了40公斤,本來想等到這最後的10公斤減完就發文。
但是我好累,好累,身心都好疲倦。
本來天天維持的仰臥起坐跟跑步,漸漸的因為莫名其妙的倦怠感而消失,
緊接著感情糾紛、親人過世、工作無能為力的加班,
下班後的操場與我漸行漸遠,我卻慌亂的不知道該如何是好。
拼命安慰自己,我是正常減肥的,只要不要亂大吃大喝不會胖的。
但我內心還是個胖子,我有胖子的靈魂,
好不容易養成不吃炸的、不喝有糖的飲料、不熬夜的好習慣,
最後又像是被捲入流沙般的緩緩沉淪。
這四個月體重跟心情起起伏伏,至親過世的打擊加上遇人不淑,
讓我一個多月只能喝水無法進食,短時間內就瘦了6公斤,整個人少了一圈。
但過了幾週,又因為感情因素,充滿不安全感的我像抓浮木一樣的大吃大喝。
所有不能吃的都吃了,吃完又痛苦不已。
我是該運動的,我該跑步,狠狠的跑他六千公尺,我就不會這樣胡思亂想。
可是我內心好空洞,無比的空洞,不知道為什麼。
可不可以給我一些拍拍,下週開始我要踏進健身房了,
我好想跟大分享減肥的點點滴滴,我好想驕傲的跟我自己說,
我是努力靠運動瘦下來的,我很棒。
但是我現在真的好脆弱又好疲憊。
我知道我休息夠久了,都一個月了,再怎樣都該熬過去。
捏著自己手臂跟肚子的肉真的好惶恐...
每天都覺得他長大了,穿褲子覺得變緊了,睡覺做惡夢自己又變更胖。
希望我能快點來貼文,希望這一關我可以熬過去。
如果可以請給我拍拍,謝謝大家 ><
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