[心情] 被學校英文老師嗆沒教師證後回給她的信

看板CS_TEACHER作者maximus1523時間13年前 (2010/11/12 05:11)推噓16(16推 0噓 43→)

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Dear Madam, 親愛的女士 Merely writing this letter whose intended reader practices the same profession as I do has sunk my heart with a sheer sense of futility profoundly, because I am defending not for the ideal of education I held a philosophical faith of, but I am virtually defending my rather insignificant survival as a teacher outside the system. 僅是提筆寫下這封信給您，我感覺到一陣難過及無奈。因為這封信的動機並不是就教育的、學識的意見分歧所做出的論戰，而(很可惜的)是在下對於己身處於教育體制外，為求生存無奈的無病呻吟。 Yes, I have indeed stated that I am one of the best English teachers in the county or equivalent expressions like that in my class, 的確，在課堂上我確實向我的學生(也是您的學生)說出了 “我是這個區域中最為頂尖的英文老師之一” 的言論。 but, wait a minute… did my manifestation necessarily imply anyone’s academic or pedagogical inferiority in anyway? Am I, a cram school teacher without a certificate, required to concede defeated and to mend some broken ego when the confrontation,as such, is inevitable? These are the very questions bothering me, and the letter is here to clarify my stance with regarding to your demands on showing my certificate in practicing teaching. (姑且不論，這樣的大言不慚是否反射出我的夜郎自大….) 可，等等，這般的言論難道便必然指名道姓出任何人學術上或教學上的絕對劣等嗎? 或是，換個自私一點的問題，在下，一位沒有教師證的補教老師，當來自教育體制內的非難、質疑、甚或是挑釁是不可避免時。難道顧全大局的小媳婦心態是我，一位補習老師的唯一宿命嗎? 更有甚者，我居然難道還得對體制內那抱殘守缺的受傷尊嚴示乖賣好? 這封信便是針對老師您要我出示教師證以資證明我教學合法性的回應， What’s more on this rather unpleasant exchange of opinions is that according to what I heard from the students, my existence as an English teacher without a government-issued certificate somehow amazes you. But not only that, it seems to you that possessing the certificate alone automatically guarantees the actual ability to both teach and apply the language --a hypothesis I think requires further scrutiny and verification. 更進一步的，自我側面聽到學生口中的描述，您似乎對於在下沒有教師證卻行教學之實的這件事情有著極大的成見。彷彿一紙教師證明便是實際的教學及運用這語言的唯一官方可能。 As much as I want to believe that a certificate could give a teacher the magical power to inspire the students to be spontaneously hungry for knowledge, to entertain the students in theirloneliest period period in their life given by puberty,and to educate the students to maximize their intellectual capacity to the fullest extent, 這幾年來儘管我想要相信一紙教師證書能賦予教師們魔法，一種能激起學生對於知識產生自發性的熱愛的魔法、一種能在他們最需要聽人說話的青春期對他們的寂寞撫慰的魔法、跟一種能將他們學習上的潛力極大化的魔法， as having been a teacher without a certificate in the past few years, I fail to see how these tasks ever carried out by any school teacher with certificates. 在當了一位沒有教師證的補習老師的這些年下來，很可惜的，我幾乎沒有看到任何一位學校老師實現過上述任何一項魔法。 My assumption is simple: If most the school teachers (with certificates of course….) actually fulfill the function they are assigned to, then 我的假設很簡單: 如果大部分的學校老師完全彰顯出他們所被期待的教育功能時 why are parents still willing to spend seemingly unnecessary time and money on cram school? Well, I guess only a teacher legitimized by a certificate could solve the Holy-Grail riddle for me, because after all, a certificate apparently means everything. 那麼，為什麼那麼多的憂心自己兒女未來的父母親們還是爭先恐後的把這些看似不必要的金錢開銷、寶貴時間耗損在補習班上呢? 恕我直言，這答案似是不證自明的 Last, your challenging me makes me even more affirmatively convinced that teaching means extremely 最後，您對我的挑戰使我更加的篤定對於您與在下而言，教學是處在光譜上的兩個極端； different to you and me; it may mean a life-assured way allowing you to mock people’ inferiority of their 對於您而言，教學似乎是一場意外、一局您隨時都能全身而退的遊戲、一張便於您對於他人的教育背景做出嘲弄的長期飯票; background and their misfortune, but to me the exaggeration I perform in each and every class symbolizes something reverent; something true; something valuable; or to its ultimate form of metaphor, something that means dying or living. I wish my reply to you doesn’t end up conclusive in a malign mutual distrust. 然而對於我而言，在課堂上的誇飾、戲劇化的表演卻代表著某種虔誠的信仰、某種代表著真實的處世價值、或是以最為通俗的話語來表達；某種介於房租繳不起，三餐未有著落的生命窘況… 再者我希望這樣的意見交換中所產生的火花，可以不是以您我雙方的敵意滋長作為其燒灼的代價。 (不管我們誰是鍋底的燃料，這都太不堪了...) I simply ask you to understand my self-boast in class is not an indirect way to undermine your academic credibility but a very very humble way to get by. 在下只希冀您能明白，任何我於課堂上的自我膨脹絕非是一種迂迴地針對您教學專業的詆毀而卻只能是一種迫於現實無奈的生存方式。 Yours, very sincerely and respectfully, 誠摯的 Frank 法蘭克敬上 -- ※ 發信站: 批踢踢實業坊(ptt.cc) ◆ From: 122.125.128.129

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