[心情] 又慢慢滋長的負能量....已回收
人生有很多值得追求的事物
但怎麼就慢慢變的只看的見外表…
家族遺傳臉型並不好看
小時候還不明顯大家都很天真
長大後就開始了被嘲笑的人生
嘲笑,揶揄永遠沒停過
每換一個工作場所,就會遇到嘲笑的人…
每每被笑,萬念俱灰的感覺都會油然而生
尤其是已經努力在化妝了
還要被拿去跟天然美女比較,並嘲笑一番
每次都把建立中的信心輕易的潰擊掉
真的不知道該怎麼辦了…
常常都想我到底做錯了什麼
不好看變成提不起勁去做任何事
唸書的時候被嘲笑,因此逃離了那個地方
以非常勉強的成績畢業,做著不需專業的工作
人生好像什麼都已衰敗
因為不好看,沒有所謂的青春
被追求的感覺是什麼,從沒體會過
出去工作後,也是不定時就被笑
被笑後,稍稍建立的信心又瞬間都消失
只想找個沒人的地方躲起來
不懂為什麼可以輕易的嘲笑
難道不知道會讓人受傷多深嗎
從以前的不敢跟人對視
不喜歡照相
喜歡雨天躲在傘的裡的安全感
過馬虎因為視線會緊張
已經慢慢克服,但還是輕易被一句話又打回原型
現在已經幾乎都不想出門
也不想逛街 和買衣服
因為不好看穿什麼衣服都一樣…
人生好像只剩下吃跟打電動可以慰藉
每次都想著,到底做錯什麼
難道長的不漂亮就沒有好好生活的權力嗎…
很難過…
但我知道父母養育的辛苦
不會輕易結束還未完的人生
只是已經沒有動力好好過活下去…
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