[難過] 當家裡的老大真的好累(文長)已回收
大家好,這是我在這板的首PO~手機排版還請見諒
我們家有兩個小孩,我和妹妹
小時候媽媽比較疼妹妹
只要妹妹跟我搶東西搶輸大哭,媽媽都會跟我說「你是姐姐,要讓妹妹啊」
還記得有一次氣到跟媽媽說「我不想要當姐姐了,把我塞回去吧!」這樣白痴的反擊
妹妹每次打輸我就跟媽媽哭,所以媽媽就會來打我,然後我也會趁機扁妹妹然後捂住她的
嘴讓他不能叫媽媽((想想我小時候好壞哦QAQ
但是媽媽都會把好的給妹妹,對自己就是動不動就打
所以自己會去想
「搞不好我不是親生的,是撿來的吧」
還因為這樣偷偷躲在被子裡哭
但是欣慰的是爸爸很疼我,不過他因為工作的關係常常不在家
長大之後,我跟妹妹就不打架了,相處得像朋友一樣
小時候樣樣比我差的妹妹高職畢業後就先去工作了,而我就是往上念大學
從小家裡的經濟狀況並不好,所以我想辦法兼顧學業、社團跟打工,再努力爭取獎學金
但是我拿回家的錢真的很有限(只有幾千這樣)
而妹妹定時會拿兩萬回家
有一次媽媽在家裡的line群組跟阿姨說「我們家老大一天到晚晚回家玩社團,不像妹妹工
作都固定拿2萬回家,老大一個月才拿幾千回家而已然後又東跑西跑,這次又跟我說要去
外縣市兩天一夜做報告,誰知道她是不是又跑去玩亂花錢,真的很不孝」
阿姨:「那是他沒有吃過苦啊,像我家小孩都會算好錢,很精明耶」
我當下真的是怒火中燒
想到上了大學到處省吃儉用(因為在台北念大學又是私校所以花費很兇)、努力念書拿獎
學金又努力在經營社團,就是為了證明自己可以跟其他同學一樣,不會因為自己的家庭背
景感到自卑
我從高中開始打工,賺的錢全部給家裡也從來不覺得自己很悲慘,還覺得我可以拿錢回家
很開心
而且阿姨的小孩是在高雄念書耶…
總覺得一直以來的努力沒有被看見就算了,還莫名其妙被罵「很不孝」
所以我爆發了,還怒退了群組
爸爸事後跟我說,那只是三姑六婆的飯後家常而已幹嘛要計較,只要你問心無愧就好了,
看不爽的話你可以全刪啊
不,我在意的並不是她嫌棄我
是她根本心裡就沒有在乎過我
我知道這樣想很不好,不過我覺得
「搞不好我是爸爸在外面偷生的也不一定,或許媽媽其實是繼母之類的」←(你以為在演
韓劇嗎XD)
然後為了幫助自己開始求助學校的心理諮商
然後偷偷調查自己的身世之謎(誤)
撇開我的狀況不說,各位是不是也因為是家裡老大的關係而被迫犧牲很多東西呢?
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