[心得] 害怕復發
我現在21歲
距離去年做完何杰金淋巴癌的化療已經滿一年了
但對復發的恐懼感一直沒有消失
甚至進醫院聞到味道還是覺得噁心...
每次定期回診
或看到抗癌板有人復發
總是覺得很害怕...
其實生病後平常的飲食作息都還蠻注意的
只吃天然食物 也盡量自己煮
零食只吃原味堅果,黑巧克力,無糖果乾之類的
便利商店食物跟路邊攤那些都幾乎不碰
甚至剛治療完時連外食時只要用到美耐皿餐具就完全不敢吃...
然後盡量十二點前睡
只是還是覺得做的不夠...
偶爾吃了一點不健康的食物就擔心會不會又復發
面對別人也會有點自卑完全不敢跟別人說我得過癌症這件事
一直有在學校心理諮商
但還是沒有解決
幾個月前找了一份一直嚮往的的咖啡廳打工
可以自己做餐點飲料還蠻有趣的
但常要早起 工作ㄧ整天真的比較耗體力
身心也會比較緊繃
覺得應該辭掉對身體比較好
但好不容易上手也蠻喜歡這工作有點捨不得辭...
最近天氣熱了起來ㄧ流汗皮膚又開始偶爾會癢(本來就過敏 但以前生病唯一的症狀就是
皮膚癢 所以ㄧ癢就很害怕)
然後常覺得疲憊
上禮拜有回診抽血驗尿的數據都正常
但最近不知道是因為心理壓力還是身體真的出狀況
總有隨時會復發的恐懼感
有時心跳變很快然後莫名的緊張甚至覺得吸不足氣
想樂觀正向一點可是一直有陰影
只要身體ㄧ怪怪的或有些毛病就開始非常擔心...
八月終於可以實現出國遊學一個月的夢想
但很害怕七月照電腦斷層的結果...
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