[心得] 說再見以後......
就在前幾個禮拜,自己一個人到了婦產科要看診,因為我是一個經期極準的人,
但是這個月卻慢了一星期沒來,原本只是想說可能剛換工作的關係,
後來想想,還是去看個心安好了,沒想到,
已經有個三個禮拜大的北鼻在我肚子裡了,
那時候看到超音波很感動,覺得自己頭上應該充滿了母性的光環,
但下一秒,我慌了,該怎麼辦?
雖然說,我跟男朋友都有計劃過未來,但卻沒有想過是現在,
醫生問我要不要回去討論一下,我說,不用了,拿掉吧,
之後醫生就說現在的時間點吃藥可以,再過一週會比現在大一倍
就不好拿了,真的要考慮清楚,第一顆藥吃下去也不能反悔了,
出了醫院我先打給我媽,她也希望我拿掉他,
回家後打給男朋友(他在打工,說等下班再說,
我回到家,看著超音波照片哭到不能自己
媽咪真的不是不要妳,可是現在的媽咪的能力一個月只有兩萬塊,
把逼,還在念書還沒當兵,我們都還要還就學貸款,
不想讓妳現在來受苦所以不要你現在來,
等我們準備好了一定會再次開心的迎接你,
到時候不要討厭我們就不給我小孩了(崩潰,
有很多人愛你想當你乾媽呀。
男朋友回來,一直跟我一起跟他說對不起,我們的無能為力(現在,
其實他說 勉強一點我們可以生下他的,
以後少吃大餐跟逛街就好,當下我有點動搖了,
後來又想,如果過幾個月後不能上班怎麼辦,(已經開始會吐了
而且今年他又要去當兵,誰照顧我,我又想了很多,
最後還是吃了藥,又繼續哭,
上天給我了他是恩惠,我卻這麼做,
對不起,是媽咪對不起你。
ps,有帶了,真的是意外,唉。
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