我家的狗狗今年13歲
凌晨五點多在我的懷裡過世了
前幾天他突然拉肚子
帶去看了醫生有不拉肚子了
可是吃很少喝很少
昨天半夜是拉肚子之後第一次大便
我們昨天早上又帶去看了一次醫生
可是醫生說要做詳細檢查
但我們沒有做
我經濟能力不允許我做全部的檢查
而家人又不是很能夠出...
今天凌晨十二點,他哭哭著
我好緊張請我哥帶我去急診
醫生說,我家狗狗很愛撒嬌
一見面還會用頭頂頂討摸摸呢!
他體溫好低,我們打了營養針
回家我幫他搓了暖暖抱好多個,把他用厚厚的布蓋了好幾件
他不哭了
看起來好一點
凌晨四點
他又哭了
我一直坐在他窩的旁邊
凌晨五點
我把在窩裡大哭的他抱了出來
他突然沒辦法自己了動
他尿尿在我的身上
可是我不會生氣
我一直說「沒關係喔沒關係喔餅乾」
我哭著去找跟媽媽
他在我們的懷裡漸漸沒了動靜
我還是一直哭
凌晨六點我哥帶我去給急診的醫院做後續火化
我在出門前還感覺他好像心臟還在跳
我跟醫生說他感覺還活著
醫生說他真的沒了
然後我看到他被禮儀師裝在箱子裡
我只能蹲在他旁邊摸摸他
跟他說
「餅乾你辛苦了,我好愛你」
我看著他被載到專門的車子上
回到家
我把沾到尿的衣服跟頭髮都洗了
家裡到處都是他的痕跡
都是他的影子
我已經兩天沒睡覺了
剛剛趟在床上
一閉上眼睛
看到的就是他在我懷裡的樣子
還有他不動的樣子
是不是我那個時候不該把他從窩裡抱出來
怎麼辦
我好自責
我好想他
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