[抒發] 發現死亡不是最可怕的,可怕的是...
可怕的是看著自己死亡....
最近家人罹癌,很年輕,不到30,未結婚。
病況進展得非常快,發病到現在不到半年。
嘗試過化療,嘗試過開刀,嘗試過電療,都無效了,現在只能做止痛療程。
應病人要求,請醫院在檢查一次開刀的可能性,
昨天陪著病人一起聽檢查後醫生的判斷,
結果就是現在任何治療都已經無效。
因為已經壓迫到脊髓和肺部,
說話會喘,需要戴呼吸器的時間越來越長,
半身也開始無力,現在已經無法自行站立。
醫生說,這兩種狀況只會越來越嚴重,疼痛的狀況也會越來越加劇。
好的狀況是,打的止痛藥越重,昏睡的時間越長。
壞的狀況是,有意識的時候,該怎樣面對自己的狀況。
在旁邊看著真的很難過很難過。
一個180公分的大男孩,就這樣要開始面對自己漸漸死亡的過程。
真的很想為他做些什麼,現在能做的只能陪他,跟他一起面對。
覺得自己很懦弱,連跟當事人討論身後事都沒辦法,只能偷偷躲在旁邊哭。
覺得自己很無能,連最基本的陪伴都做得阿里不達的,只能下班過去看一眼,說兩句。
哀...............
男版是朋友跟家人不會看的一個版,因為已經不知道要怎樣發洩自己的情緒,
所以藉版面一用。
如果有不妥,請來信告知。
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家人是神經類型的癌症,會循著神經系統在體內發病。
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