[醫療] HIV+後的生活轉變
還記得2015年的春天,我男友拉肚子要我陪他去昆明醫院看診
那時依稀感受到些許不對勁
直到數週後,他檢查出來HIV+
於是兩個月後我也去醫院檢查,得到相同的結果
在我們得HIV+之前,我常在三溫暖流連忘返
很多個夜晚都被慾望驅動而克制不了
知道要停,但停不下來,約HI越玩越火
尤其颱風夜來到,慾望就像一頭猛獸一樣,它沒有被餵飽的一天
看著Grindr上的訊息,每一個肉體都驅動我那不安的靈魂
這頭猛獸已經失了控,到無法自拔的地步
感謝男友在接下來的生活中,仍然在一起且互相扶持
彼此關心對方吃藥了沒,有沒有忘記等等
剛開始的前幾個月會有藥物的適應問題
偶爾感到疲倦但不致影響工作
然而過去累積的慾望,並沒有因此消散
仍會在數個颱風的夜晚悄然來襲
也許是出於對另一半的忠誠與自己的道德約束
過去一年半,想約炮的念頭出現頻率漸漸降低
同時跟男友的性生活也越來越少
取而代之的是生活重心開始轉換
轉而學習其他新的技藝
結交見多識廣有內涵的朋友
內在的充實與喜悅感也越來越深刻
似乎有句老話這樣說:上天為你關了一扇窗,就會為你開另一扇門
很難說得到HIV是幸與不幸
它讓我重新看見生活可以不一樣
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