Re: [問卦] 有鄉民有目睹陰影一輩子的畫面嗎?消失
一陣子沒發文了,這個議題小魯剛好有感QQ
活到現在最震撼的畫面只有一次,發生在我哥和他女友身上,
這件事已經10年了。
當時我哥從事建築業,每天早上6點就要到工地蹲,晚上8點才能回到家。
因為責任心使然(他很認真),最長曾經快5個月沒休過一天假,
操到每天都累得跟狗一樣。
當時我哥的女朋友(已是未婚妻)很希望能看他穿西裝,
因為她覺得男生穿西裝很帥,
但我哥每天蹲工地哪有機會穿西裝,於是他女友的這個小小願望就一直沒有實現。
過了幾年,他女友在某天凌晨自殺了。
是因為長期的憂鬱症和受到她自己家人的冷落(我哥對她非常好)。
在離開前她傳了一封簡訊給我哥,
寫著:「OO(我哥名字),這段日子很快樂,真的很感謝你的陪伴和照顧」。
我哥早上才看到簡訊,但一直聯絡不到人(他們沒住一起),
女方家人也不知道下落,是晚上警方通知我們找到人,才知道已經沒救了。
我陪我哥坐車過去的路上,他很沉默,一句話都沒講、但是也沒哭。
就只是雙手一直發抖,我想可能是打擊太大沒辦法說話吧。
他堅強冷靜了好幾天,到頭七完了之後回到家,我幫他買了便當一起吃。
接著是我至今仍無法忘懷的畫面,有時候一想到還是很揪心。
當時我哥很安靜的低頭吃著便當,吃到一半時他的眼淚和鼻涕開始流。
不停的流、不停的流,大量的眼淚和鼻涕就這樣流進便當盒裡。
我哥依然不發一語,我不知道是他根本沒發現自己在哭還是不想讓我們看到,
他低著頭,接著把摻著自己眼淚和鼻涕的飯菜一口一口吃下去,沒有停止。
他就這樣吃完了便當,滿臉都是眼淚、鼻涕、和一些飯粒,整張臉糊成一團。
我也忍不住哭了出來,但不敢發出聲,不知為何就傻在旁邊也都不敢動,
看著我哥自己整理完便當盒,然後看著他走進房間睡覺,
那天我整晚沒睡。
過了一年,我陪我哥去靈骨塔看她,我第一次看到我哥穿西裝。
雖然有點土土的,但他女友說的沒錯,男生穿西裝真的會變帥。
從那之後每年他去看她,不管再熱再悶他都一定會穿整套西裝過去。
然後他開始定期捐錢給慈善單位及窮苦人家,
雖然當時他收入不多,但他就這樣保持捐款。
記得當時我問過他,為何要這樣做?
你自己錢也不多,為何要這樣做?
「因為這世上有些人,心存善念」這是他的回答。
我想我知道這個回答有多麼深刻的回憶在裡面。
10年了,我相信這個傷痛會跟著他一輩子。
不可能完全撫平、也不可能遺忘,畢竟那曾是深愛過的人。
但人總會成長,總還是要扛著這些記憶面對每天艱辛的生活,
然後要努力的為了他人活下去。
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