[閒聊] 生不出來 真的這麼一無是處嗎
求孕要邁向一年半了
不知道為什麼就是沒能懷孕
能做的方式都做了 現在求助人工受孕
如果兩次都沒成功可能考慮試管
今年32了 不上不下又不年輕的年紀了
檢查了一大堆沒有問題
但就是生不出來
身邊懷孕到生完的朋友都不知輪過幾輪了
親戚三四個 朋友十幾個 連去按摩的按摩師年初結婚的也懷孕了
什麼自然懷孕機率十幾趴
我看那些懷孕成功的人懷孕機率根本九十幾趴 那個個位數的才是我
一年半可能不是很久 但也面對了18次的失敗了
量化完的數字讓人沮喪到想哭
外界壓力 旁人眼光 身心早就千瘡百孔
中南部鄰居的問候語 直接都從”吃飽沒”變成”生了沒”
自己也從積極努力 到現在完全否定自己 覺得我就是個一無是處 生不出小孩的女人 一丁
點價值都沒有
真的不知道要拿什麼來堅強
每個月心情隨著體溫起伏 每個月看著生理期來忍著經痛 每個月承受一次又一次的失敗
每個月都在努力看不到盡頭的未來
看不到盡頭真的好苦好苦 淚都流乾了還是不知道拿什麼力氣去努力
最後一根稻草是還沒有朋友可以理解
也不想讓別人知道這麼私密的事
連想求孕都得隱瞞....裝作一切都很好很棒阿隨緣
不想讓旁人察覺我的脆弱 但其實我根本脆弱到快要站不住了
這裡是唯一可以讓我純發洩的版
到底要怎麼樣堅持下去.....
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