困擾
剛剛操作式的發了脾氣。
其實心裡沒有怒氣。
對方閉嘴了，暫時有達到效果。
旁觀的人似乎不太受影響。
接下來還是行禮如儀的進行著。
似乎沒有影響到其他人，
其他人沒有比較怕我的感覺。
XD
大概就平常真的脾氣很好吧？
生氣的事也確實頗合理。
然後其實也不太會遷怒。
（感覺在稱讚自己> <)
但還是有受到了自己干擾的感覺就是了。
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困擾的是, 今天胡言亂語的次數有點多了.
廢話多了, 簡潔少了, 整齊感太少.
還有就是規劃不足, 把還沒有提過的東西放進來.
雖然多數人早就會了--可見大家多配合, 明明都會還配合著緩慢--
至於那些不會的, 平常似乎也不太會, 就算了.
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所以到底合理的速度是什麼??
我忘記我以前的需要了??
我以前不就自己看一看就知道了.
覺得這一切都很簡單啊.
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印了書, 大約三分之一就暫停了.
將近1900頁, 縮印也要500張紙.
印到200張紙時覺得那個厚度太荒謬了!
印完的畫等於抱了一包A4的紙耶!
紙質果然很重要 (嘆!
英文原文印到前20章.
但第二輪, 我中文也已經看到第21章了...真是的...
剛看完英文的第一章, 第一章少少的只有10頁.
畫了很多喜歡的句子.
電影劇本暫時放棄, 我不會看那麼多英文的.
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喜歡的句子節錄的節錄.
And you thin that you deserve only the best?
...
Masochism.
Psychoanalysis.
The directing towards oneself of any destructive tendencies.
...
I had to be the best, the strongest, to keep her.
She was the prize, the top, and I was nothing.
I existed just to serve her.
...
I'm a strong person. I need to be owned by someone stronger.
...
I haven't decided wheterh I want to live.
Every day I wake up wondering whether today's the day I'll die.
It's an ongoing decision.
I haven't chosen life. It's jst what's happened. By default.
...
If you sincerely wish to play with me,
then it would have be a more...permanent arrangement
--24 hours a day, 7 days a week.
...
This is about sex, not everyday life.
...
You have to learn to trust...and submit.
...
He wouldn't have any control, or the buffer zone of a safe-word.
He'd be totally, completely, at the mercy of his Master.
Twenty-four hours a day, seven days a wee.
...
All he could hope was
that this man was giving his life over to was benigh, and
that somehow he'd keep him back from the brink of the dark abyss he walked.
M placed the tip of the pen to the paper
--and signed his life away.
--
Wanda!
Thy will be done, not mine.
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