大家好,我今年高一,就讀的是某地第一志願女校,憂鬱情緒大概是從國中開始的,一直
到去年十一月左右才看醫生。
因為爸爸很急著想看我好,吃了大約半年的藥,看我狀況穩定許多,便提議要減藥,我知
道我爸媽很擔心我,什麼八卦鏡符水中醫各種民俗療法和身體檢查……所以我決定試試,
最後以失敗收場,又吃回原本的劑量,我爸甚至說過「藥吃這麼久了還沒好,要不要換醫
生?」這種話。
上學期由於缺課狀況嚴重,所以成績差得可以,第一志願的學校壓力也不小,我的要求又
很高,本以為這學期能一雪前恥,一開始也頗為順利,結果第一次段考的成績卻不如預期
,這次因為減藥而回到最初的狀態,我想也是凶多吉少,讓我受到不小的打擊……
最近可能是因為減藥和瀕臨期中考,又加上我這學期選修的特色課程比較重(一星期兩節
的三角函數),爸媽和自己對自己的要求提高,老師看我狀況變好也開始要我加油,看著
班上同學都很努力,覺得自己很沒用,我真的很慌張。
我相信自己如果能自制、提起精神,一定不會比其他同學差,但我卻沒有做到,這讓我實
在無法接受,我很懷疑自己只是在偷懶而已,現在最常問最近的話大概就是「我到底在幹
嘛……」吧?
最近好不容易在班上終於交到稱得上朋友(應該吧)的人,也和學姊感情不錯,但是我高二
想要選的是第三類組,我很害怕自己會崩潰,而且要重新適應一個班級,二年級要忙的事
情又更多,我真的沒自信……
我知道跟很多人的比起來我的狀況很輕,只要每天吃一顆千憂解而已,雖然睡不好但睡眠
的藥也停掉了,也有很愛自己的父母,不過因為貧血所以體力不好又容易累。
我不確定自己到底只是想逃避壓力還是怎麼樣,也擔心比別人晚一年,還有人際方面的問
題,請問有有經驗的版友能給我意見嗎?真的很感謝。
休學期間可能會做的事大概就是重新把一年級的課業讀好,寫寫詩和小說,看看課外書、
練琴練字,如果可以的話可能會打工,一直覺得生病花爸媽很多錢…
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