[心情] 媽媽永遠在批評我已回收
自從有記憶以來我媽就一直judge我
總是嫌我個性很內向很不好
拿我姐跟我比較
說姐姐個性外向獨立你怎麼就這樣
同時在我姐面前她也會比較我成績那麼好
我姐怎麼就不學學之類的
(但成績被拿來作為比較的工具我一點也不開心
因為那根本不能代表「我」這個人)
她也曾對我說你朋友OO那麼愛打扮但你怎麼都這樣
聽在我耳裡就好像在嫌棄我很土的樣子
出去逛街的時候不管我看什麼衣服鞋子她永遠都說很醜
而且還是用忍笑的語氣說為什麼我看的東西都這麼醜......
說我品味很差 以後不要再自己買衣服
但我姐用什麼東西她都很喜歡
每次都問我要不要一樣的
有時候有一些親戚朋友稱讚我漂亮
我媽總是一副不置可否地說會嗎
我媽私下不喜歡我爸那邊的親戚
常常在我面前抱怨
他們來家裡又很客氣的樣子
我心裡也不喜歡他們 因為不熟很尷尬
但他們跟我講話我還是會笑笑的應對
總不能要我臭臉不理人吧!
沒想到我媽在他們離開之後說我很假 很會裝
有一次還用line傳給我:「你真的很......」
這句話一直烙印在我心裡揮之不去
前陣子我換line的大頭貼
她看到又說 你這張照片很假欸
我已經不想回應什麼了
我媽每次都說你動作那麼慢
以後出去工作會被老闆罵
又不太說話會被別人欺負
我每次聽了都很失落
表面上是關心我
但我只覺得連你都不肯定我了
又有誰會肯定我?
之前我有去打工
回家跟她們分享一些工作上的事
我媽聽完又是問我
你有沒有被嫌動作慢啊
有因為這樣被罵嗎
那時候我才覺得
不管我做到了什麼事
在她眼裡我永遠是一個廢物
一直以來除了成績
我媽就沒對我有過什麼正面評價
好像我是一個失敗品一樣
真的很難不被她的話影響......
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