這兩天因為爸要動手術，所以成了陪病人。而在爸爸床位對面的是個講話很大聲，夾雜一
半氣音的先生。
通常病房內的門簾都是各自拉起來，保有自己的隱私。
但房簾隔的了眼睛，卻隔不了聲音。
於是知道了對面床的先生已罹患口腔癌，癌細胞也轉移到了下顎骨。
可能也是住了一段時間，早上護理師來做給藥及檢查的時候，他說著鼻胃管跟氣切做一個
段落以後他不想再繼續療程了。
他不想電化療，哪怕只剩下三五年可以活。
他想要有尊嚴的走完最後，做自己想做的、吃自己想吃的，他不想就這麼一直關在病房。
他說，因為爸爸也是電化療，他知道那有多痛苦、多累。
他怕自己沒辦法熬過整個療程。
現實生活裡進距離聽到，或身邊的人遭遇生死交關的時刻，總會將本來有的執著點或糾結
看淡。
也許平常祈求再多，都比不過一句平安健康就是福。
陪病的時候看著病床上爸爸，真的會很突然覺得，原來我長大的同時他也在老化......
進手術室前問著爸爸會不會緊張
得到一貫無關緊要的：還好啦！
但我一直都知道如果能讓你說不好的時候通常都是生死關頭了。
也不想想我逞強的個性是遺傳到誰...要一直健健康康，早日康復啦你！
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