Fear or Desire已回收
I've been stuck for sometime now.
All should of been done last year, and I have wasted one year.
Not that I wasn't trying, or not having a good time.
I was just avoiding the whole task, and now time is really running out.
I sometimes wonder if I am afraid of it, or is it just
I want to see myself fail....
I've never really failed anything. Or at least I dont see it that way.
I might not be number one, but I never really failed.
It's actually easier to strive and suprise people.
In most of the difficult situations, people would tell me its impossible,
I am not up for it, etc.
And I like proving them wrong, which I am good at as it turns out.
And why is it so different this time?
Cause so many people cheered for me? They all believed and loved me.
No one, not even one said I cant do it. So I told myself that.
I can't.... I can't make myself do it....
There must be something wrong with me isn't it?
I am afraid of failing, but I am stepping into it, willingly....
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