[心情] 我好想知道你為何離開
昨天是我們的四週年紀念日,但我們沒有撐到這天,當你開口說分手的時候,說真的我以
為你在開玩笑,同時僥倖地想說應該撒個嬌就好了吧,但你一直哭,你哭的讓我心碎,也
讓我認清這不是玩笑。
一直以來你都是我的依靠,我在你面前可以毫無保留的自在,我不用擔心我說錯了什麼話
或做錯什麼事,會惹怒你或讓你討厭,我只要安心地做自己就可以了,在你溫柔的包容下
那是我人生最自在的時光,‘’也許你是這世界上比我自己更了解我自己的人吧!‘’我
總是這麼想,對我而言你不只是情人,更是我最好的朋友,我們無話不談,面對各種議題
我們總能丟出自己的看法各自激盪,雖然常常我的論理比你薄弱,但你最後總是會對我溫
柔的笑著說‘’好啦你說的算‘’
其實到現在我還是不相信,曾經總是注視著我的你,走到哪裡都要拉著我的手的你,會如
此狠心地拋下我而去,我不曉得我做錯了什麼,你給我的理由是‘’我們不適合了“,為
什麼?這是我每天每天都在問的問題,但你離開的徹底,我無從問起,說真的我不甘心,
我很好,你也很好,為什麼我們不適合?我真的真的可以用任何我所有的換取你的留下,
但我真的儘全力試過了,我真的留不住你,只能放你離開。我一個人在家裡痛哭失聲,我
第一次感到如此無助。
過去我每天出門上班前總是會看一眼還在睡夢中的你,心裡總是想著,今天也要好好加油
,回家可以跟你一起吃飯,我們可以一起看電視,聊聊今天發生的所有大小事,對我而言
這就是幸福。是你厭煩了這樣的生活了嗎?
今天我參加了一個社團活動,這是我們分手前就規劃好的活動,但這個活動有你,我本來
以為可以控制自己的情緒,但我無法望向你的眼睛,這個曾經我最親密的人,我只能轉身
,我只能自己默默的掉淚。看著你與別人的相處,看著你安慰其他掉眼淚的女孩,摸摸她
的頭安慰她們,我很想走上前大聲地質問你,我呢?原來一個人在別人的心理可以這麼快
就消失得無影無蹤,我真的很不甘心。但也許這就是你與其他人的相處模式,只是現在我
不是你的誰了,你無需顧慮我的感受。
但我真的很難過。我不知道你為何離開。
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