[心情] 我到底該怎麼走出來?
快半年了
分手快半年了
我依舊在原地踏步
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我跟他在一起四年
志願役
諷刺的是 劈腿對象是裡面的女兵
一個有男朋友他卻甘願為她三人行的女兵
一開始跟我說的分手理由是我家人
因為我家人一直不喜歡他
跟我說冷靜一段時間
他會回來找我 信誓旦旦的告訴我 一定會
然後被我發現對話紀錄
是喜歡上裡面的女兵
我整個大崩潰
我不懂為什麼四年的感情
可以因為一個認識不到半年的女兵而瓦解
跟那女兵隔48.7公里的路程
他幾乎每天去找她報到
有次甚至半夜三點去找女兵
為什麼要三點
因為女兵剛跟男朋友看完電影
而因為太晚沒地方去
兩人"只好"去Motel
說什麼事都沒發生
你相信嗎?
我恨 同時我也傻傻的等
我覺得他玩夠了就會回來找我
但我感受得出來
他真的很愛那女兵
他對她的愛 超乎我想像太多太多了
每天我的理性跟感性都在拔河
甚至因此求助心理醫生
因為我每天都做惡夢
幾乎每天大半夜都哭著驚醒
對於自己這樣覺得不行
我很想振作
臉書換新帳號了
LINE也封了
對於共同朋友也斷絕聯繫
甚至我選擇離開有他在的城市
但離開後我並不覺得有比較好
依然惡夢連連
我好幾次甚至夢到我要自殺
邊寫遺書給他 邊哭
然後就這樣大半夜哭著醒來
我真的很想振作
放過自己
但我真的真的不知道該怎麼辦............
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